Today I went out first thing, before I had a chance to find an excuse. The day ahead is pretty busy, and I managed to oversleep. I coudn’t get to sleep last night, the usual side effect of meeting this particular person and *not* having this particular conversation. In yoga you learn about attachment, and letting go. I could really use some of that, I know it in theory, but in practice the monkey brain pulls and pulls.
Anyhow. The running. It was good, slow but good. I ran for 20 min, same as last time, a slightly different route. I put sunblock on but no hat, which was a mistake. I also need to get sports sunglasses, the sun was hurting my eyes. Running is good when you feel grumpy and sad and frustrated (and guilty, and jealous). It helps you work through the feelings, burn the sadness and the frustration with the exertion and the breathing and the movement. Yogic breathing does the same thing, and meditation, which I need to start doing again. No yoga so far today, no time. Maybe later. I feel my body craving a good stretch, my mind craving a good emptying out, some space, some time to breathe and live in the moment and stop thinking about the past and the future. Stop worrying, stop analyzing.
It’s good though, training for the triathlon, it makes me feel like I am looking after myself. It’s only been three days and already it feels like a habit. Like this is something I’ve always done.
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